Have you guys ever just had those disastrous streaks in which you have no motivation or yearning to even put effort into talking to Jesus? It's rough. I don't know why we put ourselves through that misery. It's definitely a reflection and reminder of our humanity though right? Check this out.
Isn't that legit?! Ah, that gets me every single time! But seriously, that's how I just recently felt hardcore. So I've been going through some changes...let me take that back. I've been going through numerous changes, not just some. And in my transitioning I got so wrapped up in my own life that I just pushed Jesus out of the picture. Every once in a while I would say a quick "Hey God," kind of prayer. Heartfelt would not be used to describe my recent prayers.
If I haven't mentioned in earlier posts, I am in love with writing. It's my passion for sure. Well that love for writing also plays into my relationship with God. See, I love journaling. I'll whip out my journal and just write to my heart's content all that is going on in my life. My heartaches, questions, dreams and desires, thanksgivings, and just in general all of my prayers will be poured out in writing. It truly is beautiful the way in which we each have our own unique ways in which we connect most easily to God. For some it's writing, music, praying in the silence...whatever it may be, I encourage you to embrace that. It's a gift from God, don't take if fore granted. I've made that mistake too many times with my journaling and in the long run it always causes me more distress than necessary. Good thing Jesus is literally always just waiting for us (like in the cartoon above) to begin the journey with us once again.
Okay, getting back on track, the point of discussing my love for writing and journaling is that I just recently FINALLY pulled my journal back out. Ah, long time coming let me tell you. So yes, I pull my journal out and I'm just writing away right? After I finished my journal entry, I flipped to the next page and just began writing some random phrases, whatever came to mind, in different fonts. Here let me just show you what I'm talking about.
So there's an example random journal entry for ya. But okay, here's the part that I just love!
The instant I finished writing the last bit on that page that I did, Jesus so simply and gently said to me, "You're listening Hannah. Now run with it."
How incredibly beautiful is that? How often does God gently remind us of something, or give us just the push we need to keep going on this extravagant journey in life and we maybe 'hear' His words, but that's it. And yet here He was lovingly telling me to run with it. I just can't get over it. I can't get over Him.
God always, always knows just what He's doing. Just when I think I know my own heart, He is probably up there laughing at my human ignorance. And that's when He'll tell me, "No my child, here's what you really need."
So next time you hear God telling you something or answering your prayers in ways you didn't expect. Run with it. You're in the best of hands.
